This is the first day I have “not worked” in nearly two months. I took a couple of days to think—to reflect about the state of my life, about what it would mean to me if I were to die, say… next year. What have I done with my life so far? What have I not managed to do that I want to do?
I want to get my doctorate. That’s Priority One. It’s the one thing I haven’t done yet that I’d really like to do before I die. The other thing, I think, is to write a novel. With all the writing I’ve done over the years, you’d think some of it would be creative, but really… it’s all nonfiction, either academic or documentary or technical. Do I have a novel in me?
Will I ever find out?
Life is very complicated sometimes… but in spite of that, it’s also very precious. Very, very precious. It’s been a long time since I thought about this kind of stuff… but I think it’s good that I take a look at it again, no matter what happens over the next few days or weeks.
No, if you think I am alluding to something, you are imagining things. Go back to your television sets. Go back to your Survivors and Idols. Go back to your lives.