Leapdragon 2016 - Aron Hsiao Was Here

in the dark + between the buttons  §

Just saw one of the cooler friends I have here. He’s gone blind. He was restringing his guitar and lost hold of it and got his eyes with the loose ends of the steel strings. They don’t know if he will need surgery. If he gets it, they don’t know if he will see again.

Put the clothes in the dryer. I am washing the bayou out of them. I am washing the campfires out of them. I am washing bridges and whisky out of them. I am washing good memories out of them. At times like this, the necessities of reality seem insane.

Class tomorrow. There isn’t much time left now before “this summer” is here and there’s another period of upheaval and confusion that I won’t find my way through easily, probably. I used to think I’d be glad when I was done with all of this kind of stuff, but now I realize that you never get done with it, you just do it over and over and over again and love and live and try to keep the faith.

Things that I remember most about the last week: canoe, hike, cabin, Jack Daniel, cemetery, mornings, her smile. Warmth.

Warmth.

Warmth.

It’s raining.

Gimme shelter.

When I got home today, I bought six bottles from the vending machine. Water, water, water, orange juice, grapefruit juice, Mountain Dew. I don’t drink Mountain Dew.

Six billion independent existential dramas running side-by-side in high definition, without subtitles. Blindness, aloneness, confusion, prejudice, hope, joy, reunity, disunity, an anarchist on the road who hates sexual energy, two kids on a different road who have it.

Same rain, though. Same rain is falling on everyone.

“I don’t see any God up here.”
     -Yuri Gagarin, first human in Earth orbit

“Circling the Earth in the orbital spaceship, I marvelled at the beauty of our planet. People of the world! Let us safeguard and enhance this beauty… not destroy it!”
     -Yuri Gagarin, first human in Earth orbit

harmir says:

Roses on a razor wire…