Leapdragon 2016 - Aron Hsiao Was Here


Windshield wiper fixed. (For the 20394867638274238th time. We’ll hope it holds up.)

I am thinking myself in circles today.

One thing I decided, that I guess I’ve known for a long time, but that really came to me clearly today in so many words: the biggest mistake I ever made was getting together with Je—- in ’95. The second biggest mistake I ever made was not transferring to another university out of state immediately after she and I broke up.

Everything would be so totally, completely altered in my world if I hadn’t done either one of those things. For the better or for the worse, I don’t know… but both of them ate up years. Lots of years… during which I could have been doing other stuff.

All of my friends, and now even my parents, are telling me that I don’t belong to this culture, that I need to leave this country permanently. Will it really make that big a difference? I tend to think not, but then, what do I know?

Anyway, it’s not like they’re all mentioning the same eventual destinations when they tell me I need to leave. They’re all over the globe. Sounds maybe like you-gotta-get-out-of-here-ness, rather than I-know-a-place-you’d-like-ness.

Maybe I should start thinking Cambridge again? Beh.

It’s all crap. Crap, crap, crap, crap.

mystic says:

YOU have the power, intelligence and freedom to go anywhere you want to. These are not empty words. They are factual. None of us has an unscathed life. We have all been bruised and scarred by someone, something or somewhere. Pick yourself up, brush yourself off and start living. YOU are a freakin’ amazing person with two hands, one huge brain, and legs to carry you where ever you want to go. Without Je…..in your life, you might have had a few more years to of done something different, but what would you have done? What happened then that is keeping you prisoner now? Free yourself. Fly. Freakin’ run. Suck the life outta everything you have ever wanted to do. Go…move…do it. You don’t need someone to hold your hand. They (she) will run to catch up with you…(referring to the current lady in your life)…Don’t let your life go to waste.