Things are tough right now. Really tough. I mean, I think my chances of landing a teaching position are excellent (I’m supremely confident) but such a position won’t actually kick in until fall of this year. What, exactly, will I do until then? It’s not like I can take another serious job if I’m just going to leave it for another one in a moment. But a non-serious job won’t pay my bills.
It’s not like I can find a job right now anyway, especially in this town.
But I’m broke now. I have bills now. I’m sitting alone in someone else’s house not knowing how I’m going to support myself now… I don’t have the luxury of being able to simply hang around and wait until fall. The crazy thing is, I’m leaving anyway in just a few months. Long before I reach fall, I’ll be alone. This living situation will disappear, and my girlfriend will leave me for months to my own devices, while I have to cope with these problems alone. I’ll have to leave but I’ll have nowhere to go, no way to earn, nothing to do, and no idea how to get by or where to have my mail sent. And in the meantime, I’m determined just to sit here and wait for it, it seems.
Yes, I’m an idiot. The score is in.