Leapdragon 2016 - Aron Hsiao Was Here

full time job blues  §

I am still trying to uncompress from last week and yet in just a few hours I have to start a new week.

🙁

leapdragon says:

It takes over your life…

…and you hate it and realize that you’re being digested and swear to everyone that sooner or later you’ll quit, after you save up just a little more, after you get in just a few additional months for your resumé, after you see just one more project through…

…and then someday when you finally quit, when you finally escape, after all the days you’ve spent wanting to leave, you find that you’re suddenly cold, alone, and bewildered without it, aimless and tiny like a newly hatched dragonfly trying to stay afloat in a heavy midnight rainstorm…

…whenever a story is over, you desperately begin to search for a new one, whether you loved the last one or no…

mystic says:

oh…and i hate not knowing where my balance is…

mystic says:

how can anyone like someone who doesn’t like themself? i hate myself…i hate how selfish i have lived…i hate how nothing makes me happy anymore…i hate being in physical pain 24/7….i hate being in mental agony 24/7…i hate judging other people cuz my opinion of them will always be critical…i hate stepping on ants just cuz i can…i hate it when the desert wine bottle becomes empty at 8am in the morning…i hate TV…i hate my job…i hate my boss…i hate all the stupid mistakes i made while raising my kids…i hate the fact that i wasn’t good enough or rich enough to buy myself a gold medal to represent a county i hate. i hate the fact that i suck at everything i do anymore. i annoy a guy i am lucky to have around…i hate myself for being a bitch to him. then i hate myself for screwing up a beautiful day with my shitty attitude…and i really hate lizzie mcguire!