It’s hard not to get very jealous of the people — and in particular the other guy — that has my girlfriend right now while I don’t — that has more time with her on a day-to-day basis as I sit here working than I’ve ever had or am ever likely to have with her — and that will do so for many months to come. It’s hard to hear her talk about the realities of the road, and about not wanting to be without him as they progress.
Right now it makes me bitter and depressed, and that makes me even harder for her to talk to — if I’m not careful, a vicious cycle.
Life sucks and today I’m sad and lonely.
Tonight is going to be very, very hard.