everyone else gets smiles, attention, and respect for free. For me, however, it depends on my ability to follow instructions—often contradictory instructions—to the letter. And if I deviate from them, I get hostility, and can only watch others get the affection from afar. And if I mention this state of affairs, that is definitely counter to instructions and grounds for more hostility, less attention, more insistent instructions.
I have the worst deal on earth. I would have had more love if I had remained a stranger, one of the “unprivileged” masses.