How many times in my life do I have to learn this lesson?
Don’t think of other people.
How many times do I have to lovingly organize everything for someone else, only to have it thrown back in my face complete with insults and yelling, before I realize that this is the dumbest thing a person can possibly do?
Nobody will ever appreciate it.
Somehow they will find a way to decide that you did all that stuff for yourself, that you are beneath contempt, that you are an ass or a fool or a narcissist.
And at the end of the day, with your own stuff not taken care of because you were busy putting them first, they will point the finger at you (after yelling at you for everything you’ve done) and ridicule you for not having your own stuff done, too.
I will never, apparently, learn this lesson.
I’ve spend my whole life learning it over and over and over again and I will never learn it.