Here’s an observation that bears mentioning.
My negative emotions are the ones I blog about. My positive emotions go to the people in my life.
When I am able to do it, blogging gives me a place to put my fears, insecurities, anger, and sadness, and to feel better—without having to give it to others directly.
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Thing is that I don’t actually know whether this is a healthy strategy or not.
On the one hand, it means that things that I really don’t want to impose on them—not as a matter of insecurity always, but often just as a matter of caring—don’t have to affect their days.
On the other hand, it also means that there are things about me that they don’t know unless they read. A kind of dishonesty?
On the other hand, nearly everyone that matters to me knows that this space exists, and they choose or have chosen at various times to avoid it. So maybe it is in an indirect way healthy and honoring their wishes?
I don’t know. I know that I usually feel better when I (am able to) write, and that traditionally I haven’t felt better when sharing the kinds of things that I post with the people that I care about.
But is that right or wrong?
Does right or wrong even enter into the discussion here, or am I searching for answers where there are only choices?
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If there’s one thing that introspection and self-work do, particularly when aided by expertise, it’s confuse the hell out of you.